When did this happen? When did we get to "just a few more days"? When did time begin to pass again? Slow down ... SLOW down! Please, I'll do anything. I'll BE anything. I'll do more, I'll help more, I'll pray more if only You will slow this time down.
And I don't know how it got here. Last week seems so far away - everything we did. Every excited moment, every happy smile, every special gift seems so far away. A lifetime away. Just one week ago is a lifetime away.
Suddenly we are moving too fast, suddenly we are clinging onto these moments, gripping, trying to hold them back. Trying to keep them from moving forward. Trying to hold onto the tiniest seconds. Because I only get to wake up next to him for a few more days. Because I only get to hear him talk our children to sleep for a few more days. Because I only get to see Eli walk to him for a few more days. Because I only get to hear Logan say, "Come on, Daddy" for a few more days. Because I only get to know he is safe for a few more days. Because I only get to "know" things for a few more days.
Days that will turn into hours. Hours that will turn into minutes. Minutes that will turn into seconds. Seconds that will turn into instants. Instants that will turn into nothing.
Just a few more days.
Father Time, I'll do anything.
Anything.
Just slow it down.
I'm feeling the same way right now. :( No children here, but the slowing down the last few days part.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny how right before a deployment we want time to slow down and as soon as it starts we want it to speed up! In my experience it goes at its own speed :(
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jessica. Also don't think of the instants turning to nothing. Think of them turning into memories. Just remain positive. He WILL be as safe as possible. He WILL be home as soon as possible. Soon you WILL be waking up next to him again. I know it is hard, but that is what helped me through my husbands deployments.
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone for your encouraging words!
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